and then...... I cried

After I did my last post I realized I had forgotten the whole reason I was in the mood in the first place.

I have been feeling real shitty the last few weeks and noticed my semi-regular monthly hadn't been so semi-regular. I had been on track for a few months and could actually tell the day I was going to start when I realized I hadn't started the day I thought I would.

My SIL had been telling me to take a pregnancy test and I always hold off because I hate the sick feeling I get when it reads 'NEGATIVE' , but I gave in yesterday (thinking.... it does seem like I just might be) and I hurried home and went straight to the bathroom.

Normally it takes a few minutes for the bad news to show up but not yesterday, it took all but a split second to read 'NEGATIVE' and I felt like I had been hit with a brick.

Not but a minute later the hub calls and right away says " what's wrong" and of course I say "nothing " and he knows I'm lying and continues to ask until I hurry him off the phone with the "I'm busy making dinner!" excuse.

When he got home he continued to press the subject until I started to cry and go into the whole thing about having a baby and why everyone around me is having babies and I 'm not.

At the point I was in no mood for comfort I just wanted to be left alone.

So there it is, the one thing that started me on a roll about the lines, that and the earlier post I had read but now you have the whole story.