Wondering

When my Grandmother got sick she started mentioning to different members of the family what she would like each of us to have after she passed, she told me I could have a Blanket/Hope Chest. Well my Grandmother passed away in early December 2006 and ever since that day I have been back and fourth with myself on getting items that belonged to my Grandmother including the chest. After all this time I had finally decided it was time to get the chest she wanted me to have, she had already given me the key and tonight after we brought the chest home I attempted to open it . It was a struggle and after about 30 minutes for the hub to open it, but should I have opened it ?Once I moved the top layer of stuff I came across my parents divorce papers and over a dozen taped conversations between my parents and several other family members including myself and my brothers. All of these conversations were recorded without the other persons knowledge and I just wonder if my Grandmother had a purpose in giving me the chest knowing that the items were in there. Now, I know both my parents are shitty , shady , lying , cheating people , but what is weird is why would she allow me to have these? I have such weird feelings about all this as I sit here and type this post and listen to the tapes it stirs up my heart and emotions to hear my mom and dad fight out all their bullshit. During my entire life I have struggled to maintain a normal relationship with my parents and to hear the way my mother would talk about us and how she really didn't care to deal with us and how she would treat us. Whats even funnier is the current tape I am listening to is a time when I can recall very clearly and it was over 20 years that it happened. I am convinced as I hear these tapes my mother hated us ( kids) and it is so very sad to hear such words come out of a persons mouth.......wow this is just too much.